i know that u want me to do what u want. But here's it. I'm not your pet and i got my own life too. So back off and stop interfering in my life. You told me to "go sit there" today. But i refused and went into the room. You tried to push me but i said "don't push me". I had to control myself, I couldn't raise my voice at you with a whole lot of people around. Why can't you face up to reality? Why can't you accept the fact that you can't change any of these? You chose this path and it's too late for regrets now. Sometimes I really wanna scream at you and do what my heart tells me to. But no, i can't. All i can do is suppress my anger. Do you know how hard that is? And considering that fact that i'm a hot-blooded teenager, shouldn't i be erupting like a volcano?
You never once cared about how i feel. You only care about what others think of me. I'm so tired of putting on a mask. I juz wanna be who i really am.
You've beeen influencing me for as long as i can remember. But from today onwards, I'm not gonna allow you to do that. I'm gonna have a mind of my own. I'll make my own decisions. You should know where you stand, don't go too far.
Have you ever heard that long term suppressed anger can turn into hatred? It might juz happen one day without even u or me knowing it. You had better change your ways or don't blame me for doing what i'm forced to. I can't tell you all these face to face. And you will not even read this, if you do, you should know that i'm talking to you.
I waited for the night to arrive, to vent my anger here. Here i am, wishing that you were juz a figment of my imagination. And that you had never existed in my life. But then again, it's all thanks to you that have made me a stronger person. So ironically, I thank you for coming into my world.