i know that u want me to do what u want. But here's it. I'm not your pet and i got my own life too. So back off and stop interfering in my life. You told me to "go sit there" today. But i refused and went into the room. You tried to push me but i said "don't push me". I had to control myself, I couldn't raise my voice at you with a whole lot of people around. Why can't you face up to reality? Why can't you accept the fact that you can't change any of these? You chose this path and it's too late for regrets now. Sometimes I really wanna scream at you and do what my heart tells me to. But no, i can't. All i can do is suppress my anger. Do you know how hard that is? And considering that fact that i'm a hot-blooded teenager, shouldn't i be erupting like a volcano?
You never once cared about how i feel. You only care about what others think of me. I'm so tired of putting on a mask. I juz wanna be who i really am.
You've beeen influencing me for as long as i can remember. But from today onwards, I'm not gonna allow you to do that. I'm gonna have a mind of my own. I'll make my own decisions. You should know where you stand, don't go too far.
Have you ever heard that long term suppressed anger can turn into hatred? It might juz happen one day without even u or me knowing it. You had better change your ways or don't blame me for doing what i'm forced to. I can't tell you all these face to face. And you will not even read this, if you do, you should know that i'm talking to you.
I waited for the night to arrive, to vent my anger here. Here i am, wishing that you were juz a figment of my imagination. And that you had never existed in my life. But then again, it's all thanks to you that have made me a stronger person. So ironically, I thank you for coming into my world.

got our option form already.. Stop influencing me! I've already made up my mind. I'm trying to get "stress" and "cant handle" out of my vocabulary. Everybody's always talking at me. Everybody's trying to get in my way. I wanna listen to my own heart talking. I need to count on myself instead! [BET ON IT]
Yeah real meaningful lyrics. I don't care! I gonna put option E as first choice and option D as second. I'm not gonna listen to anyone but myself. ITS MY CHOICE, MY LIFE! C'mon friday come quickly! I needa hand the form up so i won't make any changes. I WILL NOT GET INFLUENCED! I'm gonna do my own thing.

DADDY I WANT A PONY! 12:51 am

exams finally over! i'm done with memorizing chunks of facts! went ice skating on mon tues n thur which is today. Fell down on mon and tues but today didn't. Met Yue Jing there today and i forgot her name. So sorry hor cuz neva see u for so long... haha but i did remember in the end.

RESULTS are out. I did ok... satisfying la.. but could have done better. o well i shall try harder next time. it ain't the end of the world eh...

And today Kerrie n i went crazy cuz we were singing u are the music in me sharpay version.. we kept going.. nananana nananana you are the music in me me me me me me me me me me me.... laughing until tears come out.. my tears come out very easily i dunno why... den KERRIE WEE kept saying my face turn pink den i cover my face wif my book. i couldn't stop laughing. once i start i cant stop. Dun make me laugh!

SHe also gave me the best bday present eva! BAked cookies for me and gave me a PINK card. Thank you dear, really appreciate it. you're da best!

o yeah b4 i forget.. on mon at the ice skating ring i met this REALLY CUTE LITTLE BOY. My boyfriend! haha he's name is leonard and he's from belgium and he's 6 yrs old. haha. got a pic of him.. but i'm not gonna put it on the net... he so cute!!!!

There was another cute cute boy boy today... his hair is blonde and he got pretty blue eyes! i squat down cuz i was helping jacelyn take food from the vending machine and we were face to face!!! ahhhh he so cute! he looked me in the eye! i think he's about 3 yrs old.. and his little finger almost got stuck. heng he took it out.. smart boy!

currently watching gong zhu xiao mei aka romantic princess. CALVIN quite shuai in the show! i think i like him already! aHHHH!! haha but JIRO is still no. 1! d show is damn nice sia... must watch ah ppl! its gonna be a hit like hana kimi. yeah

and gosh there's trainings and PTs during the holidays... huh... sian. must go back sch. again holiday won't feel like holiday. thats life. life ain't fair.

gonna watch ying ye 3+1 now... and i think i'm gonna change my blogskin when i'm free...