Pink is the colour

Monday, September 18, 2006

still got prob..

My obssesion with mr fighting isn't over yet, not at least until the show is over. But meanwhile, let's keep it this way. The way i like it. So i know that the year end exams are approaching and they're approaching real fast. I don't know why but i just don't have the mood to study. It just isn't right. Maybe it's because i have been so lazy this year. I really have. Perhaps the reason is obssesing with idols. Yes it can get very addictive and i'm addicted already. So for those of you out there who want to watch taiwanese dramas aka ou xiang ju-s, you better be careful because you never know what crazy thing you'll do next like what i'm doing. Hogging the computer right in the middle of the night and the next day is a school day. The time now is 12.59am monday morning. No one's online and that's expected because you are all goodie goodies who listen to your mums who tell you all to go to bed early. Fortunately for me, my mum's sleeping. My dad's overseas. My brother's fast asleep in his single bed unlike mine which is a super single. HAHAHAHAHA i get the bigger bed. *Smiles*
You know what i'm doing now? I'm finding pictures from mr fighting. I am going overboard. I like the picture on top. Don't cha think tony and esther very compatible? I think so. But she's 18 and he's 28. Ok it would be better if their ages are kept confidential because it's weird to date a guy who's 10 years your senior. Oh before i forget, sorry the tagboard isn't working. It has gone mad. Well anyway, i don't really update my blog that often because as you all know, i've been busy watching videos on youtube and finding songs on baidu.

And now, my daily life. Let's see... I get very frustrated whenever people compares me with others. I mean, why can't i be different? Why must i be "like other people?" It just doesn't make sense. What's the point of living if everyone is the same? Wouldn't it be like the world has only 1 person with many clones except for the fact that no one looks alike? And another thing is sometimes you get very discouraged if someone is better than you in like pratically everything and you feel like it's the end of the world and if you commited suicide no one would give a damn about you because you are not at all important. Ever felt like that before? I did. Ok only the first part, not the commit suicide part. That's so exaggerating. In tuition, its like i am the third lowest person. As in, in terms of academics. And when the brainy people ask questions from school, i feet like a total moron cuz i don't understand a word about the question. It's like what's the point of staying on at the tuition when the people there are so brainy and i'm just so normal like all the other 220 scorers. Sometimes i feel like quiting but i can't cuz i can't find a better tutor. Actually i don't need one since i can cope on my own now that the standard's a little lower and i don't really have to put in much effort. And at the same time, i'm afraid that if i quit, my grades will drop like hell. This is so frustrating. I just wanna maroon myself on an island. I think i spelt maroon wrongly.. but what the heck. So ok that's about it for now. I've got school tomoro...

DADDY I WANT A PONY!

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